Scares the crap outta you too right?
I was on UCAS today and I freaked myself out, it occured to me since I finish college next June, I should be looking at Uni's and course - Bad idea!
There's one option near home and the rest are like Edinburgh, Stirling etc - that set me thinkin I couldnt travel there every morning, not on time anyway so I'd have to move then that set me off thinking, I'd have to find somewhere to live and that would mean moving out, which would mean my brother taking over my room, which would mean me living on my own. Then I started thinking about how un-domesticated I am, I can't cook, I'm messy, I can't hang out a washing properly, I can work the washing machine but I forget to put the soap in! I'm a scatterbrain, I lose my keys daily,I can't sleep in my own house when theres no one else here and I've lived here for 20 years, I don't want a student loan cos I'm scared I can't pay it back......... you get the picture I freaked out!
Gonna get my provisional this month and fnd a job, do driving lessons and learn to drive, giving me money and a get out of public transportation!!!!!
This whole after college stuff freaks me out muchly!
Decided since I hadn't blogged in a while that an update was in order, only sarah and tracey will see it, but hey it's an audience to cater to!
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